After feeling led to YWAM (Youth With A Mission) while I was in Africa, the next step for me was to find a training school and get signed up. The campus in Colorado Springs is actually called "Strategic Frontiers" and it's focus is on reaching out to unreached nations within the 10/40 window and bringing Christ to places who have never heard of His name or His grace. After 3 months of DTS (discipleship training school), I'm headed back overseas until the end of the summer. Where am I going? At this point, only God knows. Stay tuned for details :)
So here I am, sitting on my sister's laptop, and while the rest of the world sleeps, my mind won't slow down. I'm writing in that in-between place again. I don't have a home. I'm not here or there, but the almost gives me butterflies. The hardest part for me is trying not to have any expectations. I honestly don't know what I've gotten myself into (or what God has thrown me into, I should say). I don't know my teammates, I don't know what I'm going to be studying this semester, and I don't know where in the world I'll be living in three months. As I was leaving Lincoln, I kept getting questions like, "what about this" and "what about that," and the best answer I had to give was, "I'll find out."
I'm about to find out. I'm so close to a vision that God has placed on my heart. And I'm ready for it. I'm not nervous for the unknown, to be honest it excites me. I'm excited to learn and grow and fellowship, and be stretched out of everything I'm comfortable with. I'm anxious to go back on the mission field, to learn another culture and another person's story and be His hands and feet. I'm ready to come alive again. Being home, I've looked for things that make me feel worthwhile - work, going to the gym, roadtrips and coffee shops and Bible studies. While all of these are good things, my intentions have been all wrong. I've been trying to fill myself up. In Kenya, the goal was to fill OTHER people up, and in return my heart was overflowing. I'm ready to take my eyes off of myself again. And maybe a location change will be the extra push that I need.
So I'm writing again. This adventure is just getting started, so there's much more to come. If you'd like check out the school I'll be living at, their website is http://www.ywamsf.org. Also, my personal e-mail address is jill.kilzer@gmail.com if you'd like to get in touch personally. Please pray that these next couple days are a time of great fellowship and getting settled in. I know there are students coming in from all over the country (just like me), and it's going to be an adjustment for all of us living under one roof. Stories, God-moments, and pictures soon to come :)
Many of us want a map, but what we get is a compass. - Erwin McManus
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