cloud 9

I feel like I've been flyin' on cloud nine this week. It's knocked me off my feet a couple times when I think about how blessed I really am. That this is really my life. I never want to take for granted all of the incredible opportunities I've been given. all of the priceless friendships in my life. all of the stories and memories and experiences that have shaped who I am now. & the best part is, I really can't take credit for any of it. 

God is so good. I've been saying that in my head over and over again, and even catch it slipping off my tongue. I just love seeing his miracles. His provision. Getting ready to go on an outreach is hard, because there's so much left in the unknown. Like this one in particular - How are we going to get all of the equipment we need? Where are the finances going to come from? Who is going to be able to go? What are we going to be able to film? No one has done this before, is it even possible?? A big part of this journey is trust and faith, but honestly, this is my favorite part right here - when it all comes together. 

It's all coming together. Especially in the financial department, which has been a HUGE prayer for this team. Our film crew has needed thousands and thousands of dollars to even attempt this outreach, and now that we're down to the wire with days left before departure, God remains faithful and is meeting and exceeding all of our needs! My roommate just received a $2700 scholarship, along with the rest of my team's finances being raised, nearly $7000 has come in for camera equipment, plus additional ground fees that were desperately needed. Which through all of this just resonates one thing in my head, "we're really going..."

Up until this point it's been a lot of talk. Excitement, anticipation, preparation, but it hasn't been real. It's finally sinking into my heart what it is I'm about to do, and there isn't a thing I can do to wipe this smile off my face. None of my past hesitations even seem to matter anymore - skill level, finances, safety, security. God has never left me in this alone. Ever. It's been his plan from the start, and I just haven't been able to jump on board 100% until now. I wouldn't trade what I do for anything. Yes, it would be nice to have the luxuries of ordinary - a house, a car, maybe a boyfriend even? But who wants nice when you can have  e x t r a o r d i n a r y . My life is a story, I want it to to be worth reading. Don't you?